Charleigh and me, and the new normal.

     Dean's Memorial Service is now done.  We think it was just what he would have wanted.....a celebration of a life well lived, accompanied by the '60s music he loved, and by photos of his life.  Our most wonderful family and friends were all there.

     Today family members must return to their own lives and jobs, so it is just Charleigh and me figuring out our new normal.  When I went to pick up Charleigh today from the pet-sitter, I finally had some alone-time to talk to Dean for awhile.  Are you familiar with the poem, "i carry your heart with me" by E.E. Cummings?  I have always loved it, and find it particularly comforting.  It embodies exactly what I will do.  I will always carry Dean with me in my heart.  He wll always go wherever I go, and see and do whatever I do. He will attend our family gatherings, graduations, and weddings;  go on vacations;  and maybe I'll even listen to some Husker football for him.  I will never be without him.
 

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]

BY E. E. CUMMINGS

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

                                                      i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)